Day 87: Magic is starting to sparkle.

I don’t want to convey the image that my economic life is improving right now. It will take a few more months for that. But…

…I am starting to see magical sparkles around me.

I’m getting back what I’m putting into some areas of my life right now. The wheels are turning. They are still grinding heavily, making a loud noise of hesitance to move. I’m still having to hand crank each wheel and I am sweating through it. But they are turning. It gives me strength to push harder on the economic front.

That’s also all I need to feel to be strong enough for trial. I am there, in that place of knowing, “Okay. I’ve got this…”

Self-balance.

In light of what I say above, how ironic that today’s spiritual devotion was about “breaking the cycle.”

…who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion, who satisfies your desires with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.”


Psalms 103:2-4

I have a new kind of balance coming into my life. It is one I have not had before – ever. So I just need to let it emerge at its own pace, to have the chance to embrace it fully.

Good things are afoot.

Work.

I spent all day running errands, having meetings and doing laundry. But that is the type of day I love, one of taking care of someone in balance with having an occupational “diversion.” Today that someone is myself. But in the near future, I hope to enjoy taking care of others while I feed my brain, as part of each day.

Technically, Fridays are my day off. But until trial, my nose is sticking to this grindstone. It is for the best.

Physical.

I ran all over creation and kept moving all day. At the end of the day I was so eyelid-heavy that I checked my Apple watch and decided I needed to sleep instead of working out late. Sleep is so rare for me. So to have it is a blessing for my body and spirit. Carpe diem.

Material.

Bah humbug. More money going out each day than coming in. Do not like this one bit. But for the next month, it is what it is. It is a trial for survival to deserve the blessings that will soon come forth. At least that is how I see it.

And I survive.